Sunday, December 20, 2009
We got to see all sorts of fun stuff. Bridget was much more interested in the aquarium section than the zoo section.
She liked watching the penguins dive and swim (really, who doesn't?) but her favorite thing of all was this little fish. She just stared at it and very contentedly watched it swim back and forth in its little home.
The sound on the video is horrible because there were so many people around, but you can hear Uncle Brandon in the background being so excited about Bridget enjoying herself. This video was taken after we had already been standing watching the fish for several minutes.
I think we need to get Bridget a fish tank, what do you think? :)
Monday, November 9, 2009
I'm so glad she's home. Now to get her a bath...
Friday, November 6, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
So, Sophie is MIA right now. Sophie is our cat. She doesn't get much face time here. Maybe that's why she's hiding. Either way, Mike's really worried and I must admit I'm a little concerned as well. We spent about 45 minutes shaking treats and toys around the house and opening up every door and cabinet we could. No Soph anywhere. I'm sure she'll somehow appear tonight. Sophie is a champ at hiding and she's done this to us a few times but it's been a couple of years since she hid this well. However, there's that teeny, tiny, nagging feeling in the back of my mind wondering if somehow she got outside. We searched front and back and didn't see her but maybe she wandered? Now I'm more worried. *sigh* I'll update tomorrow.
In brighter news, Bridget will be 5 months tomorrow. Holy cow.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Anyway, to try to get them to understand that we don't have HALLOWEEN off but NEVADA DAY, we study about our state symbols.
We learn about:
Score another one for Consumer America. *sigh*
I couldn't do anything but smile and say "yep."
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Here's my problem: I don't know where to go from here. This started out as a blog about me and my infertile bitterness and struggle to become a mommy. While I still consider myself to be in the infertile and pregnancy loss family, I have been able to go on to the successful side (where I hope to see so many others soon). I don't want to alienate my fellow IFers with non-stop talk of baby, but that's kinda my life now. I struggled to get her for so long (not as long or as hard as some others, but plenty for me) and I want to document her life. I don't want this to turn completely into a "mommy blog" either though. So where to go from here?
I have a feeling it will run mostly along the lines of baby mixed with some anecdotes about things happening at work and randomness that I note from day to day. Pretty boring but things I like to share, ya know?
So, to all of my IF friends, I apologize in advance and understand if you need to stop following (although I hope you won't). I will keep following along with your journeys and wishing you the best, as always.
For my non-IF friends, I hope you'll continue to hang out even when I'm not the most amazing person to read (as if I ever was huh?). In general, I hope to be keeping in touch more with the blogosphere and I hope to hear from you guys too! Oh, and here's a picture of Bridget because I can.
From her 4 month "photo shoot" which was almost a month ago already. HOLY COW where does the time go?
Saturday, October 31, 2009
She was a ladybug for Halloween. This was at our Trunk-or-Treat. See her little barrette? Yeah, Mommy is a sucker for cute hair things. Who wouldn't be with a baby with hair as awesome as Bridget's? Haha.
Hanging around the house today I had her dressed as a ballerina. Aren't those the cutest little shoes?!I think she's practicing. She looks so perfect and girly in this picture.
And then the fun begins! We (and by we I mean Mike) hollowed out the pumpkin and we gave Bridget the "guts" to play with. She wasn't quite sure what to do except try to eat them. It was pretty funny.
Out tonight passing out candy. We didn't actually take her out Trick-or-Treating because, well, she doesn't eat candy and lord knows Mike and I don't need any. ;) So we just dressed her up and sat in front of the house talking with our neighbors and passing out candy. It was a great night.
And finally, here's our pumpkin. Mike was VERY proud of it. I think it's pretty good too. All in all, a great first Halloween. Here's to many more to come.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Anyone out there want me to send them some water? ;) I personally am avoiding it. I don't want to miss a minute of time with my little one.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
So, I am officially using birth control again. This is extremely weird as I haven't taken any birth control since before I got married. I stopped taking my pills about 3 month before we got married and never started them again. We used condoms for the first year and then started trying for a baby. So there has been no form of birth control used in this family for more than two years! And yet there's only one Bridget. That's what IF will do to ya folks.
Anywho, on to the BC. I react VERY badly to the pill. The adjustment to the hormones is truly frightening. I turn into an absolute monster and cannot control my emotions. I yell and scream at Mike for the tiniest things (ex: squeezing the toothpaste from the middle) and I cannot stop myself. For this reason, neither one of us was too keen on me going on the pill again. Everyone says that breastfeeding is a natural form of BC. Well, that may be true but I just can't trust it. Especially since I'm not exclusively breastfeeding. I definitely don't want an "oops" baby.
With all of this in mind, I talked to the doctor and we decided on Mir.ena. I really like the fact that it will last for 5 years and I don't have to remember anything (except to get it removed in five years!) There's no hormone adjustment period and the side effects are pretty mild (some cramping and bleeding for a bit.) It took about 2 minutes to "install" (although I waited for an hour and half past my appointment time to be seen but that's another story). And now, I'm all set. No more babies here!
Which again, is a strange thing. For so long, all that consumed every thought was getting pregnant. The timing, the CBEFM, the peeing on sticks, the disappointment, etc... And now I'm back to being a "normal" person who actually worries about sex leading to a baby. ::eye roll::
**It's safe now**
Look at the cute Bridget in her swing!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
So our new schedule starts tomorrow. I've gotten so used to driving with Mike in the morning its going to be weird to be without him. I enjoy our bit of time together. I also enjoy not having to drive in traffic. I really don't enjoy driving all that often so Mike always drives to and from work (and pretty much any other time we're in the car together). Now I have to drive alone. Boohiss!
I have to drop Bridget off alone too. No more kisses from Daddy in the mornings at daycare. :( She'll still have Mommy though.
Anyway, it's late and I have to get up in the A.M. 'night all!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
And now look at her. Playing outside in this big wide world!
Then we got to go have sushi for the first time since, well, about this time last year. Yaaaaaay! Yummy, yummy, yummy!
It was a great birthday. I can't remember one I have enjoyed so much. Here's to hoping for a great upcoming year!
Friday, September 11, 2009
BIG NEWS!! After more than a year of working at a job he HATED, Mike's last day of work was today. He starts his new job on Monday and both of us are really looking forward to it. Not only will it be a much less stressful job, it will be better pay and a reliable paycheck.
Up to now, he's been working in a small business with very few employees and things have just gotten worse and worse in the three years he's been there. Mike finally got fed up enough and seriously started looking for a new job when he walked into work 5 months ago and they announced that they were cutting everyone's pay by 20%. Yeah. We're just going to take away a day worth of pay each week. Because don't you know that that's just what everyone can handle right now? And it was especially great timing for us being that we were saving up because there was a baby coming. ::sigh:: Then for the past 2 months, payroll hasn't gone through. Which leads to us overdrawing our account and fees and bounced checks and all sorts of other badness. BooHiss!
But now, things will be better! His new job is with the county, so he'll be getting government benefits and he'll only be doing the job of ONE person (where before he had about 5 job descriptions). I'm hoping that this will lead to a but less stressed household around here.
Plus, we just got his truck fixed. It's been down for almost 10 months. It's going to be interesting getting used to having two cars again. What will I do with myself in the mornings now that I won't have to rush around to get him to work in time? I have a few great ideas. Many involve sleeping (which is probably wishful thinking since there's a little person called Bridget :)). They will probably include spending some quality smiley time with my Bridgey in the morning and watching the news again while feeding her.
I have a huge smile just thinking about all of this. ::Warm fuzzies:: Now off to bed. Fresh bamboo sheets call my name (that's a whole other post right there).
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
So, I headed to the local crunchy mama store to look for homeopathic remedies or other ideas that could help. The lady at the store asked, "Have you tried breastmilk?" What? Breastmilk? "Umm, what do I do with it? She drinks it but that's about it." She said to squeeze a little out and put it on the rashy spot. Thinking to myself "well, it can't hurt" I went home and tried it. Lo and behold, within a day all traces of the dry spots were gone. Gone I tell you!
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
"You're my March enemy!"
Several students caught it and corrected him. I swear, the kids this year have great personalities!
Monday, September 7, 2009
So there you go ladies. Smile and be happy about your thighs for a minute or so. You're welcome.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
We went out today and got her some new toys. She can have the 3+ month toys now. Hahhaa! So we picked up a few different rattles and such so try to get her interest. Her favorite is the O Ball (I think that's what it's called). Anyways, it's light and easy to grip and she had a blast with it on the floor today. Witness the gripping!
Yes, she has wrist rattles on too. :) I told you we rattled it up today.
And of course we had to take her 3 month photos. We chose a new location this month and I think we'll take all our pictures here from now on. I like the background better and Bridget can sit up on her own against the cushions. Oh my gosh, she's sitting!
Happy 3 months baby! I'm so happy you're mine. I can't picture my life without you in it.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Today was one of my best friend's 30th birthday. One of her other really good friends and her husband planned a surprise party for her. So, we all got dressed up and headed down to dinner to surprise her. And it was a success! She was so surprised she was crying. Hooray! We had a great time and some pretty good pizza. Yum!
Happy birthday Jamie!
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Started out with a happy, smiley baby that just wanted to be held. She was cooing and smiling and kicking her little legs in happiness. Then I had to put her in her car seat and drive her to the sitter. She just screamed her little lungs out the whole time. This makes for a very sad mommy.
We left the sitter (Mike and I drive together) and got pulled over for "speeding." It's a completely BS ticket and Mike and I are planning to fight it. We were keeping up with traffic AND going the speed limit. In fact, when I called my mom and told her our speed and location, her first words were, "Oh, you got pulled over for going too slow?" Umm, nope. "Were you in a construction zone?" Nope, just an asshole cop.
So we leave that ordeal and continue driving to work (for which Mike is already 20 minutes late). Mike drops me off and I walk to unlock the gate to go into my classroom. OH CRAP! Where is my purse?! I turn to watch it driving off on the top of the car. I'm frantically waving and screaming, hoping Mike will see me. I'm running as fast as possible to catch him while carrying my breast pump bag, my school books, my lunch bag, AND wearing a dress. Lovely.
Sadly, I did not catch him and as I'm walking to the freeway (hoping that it may have fallen off as her turned the corner) I start crying. My camera is in there. My keys are in there. My ID is there. My phone is there. How in the hell am I going to replace all of that? Alas, the purse did not fall off before Mike got on the freeway.
I walked back to school and into the office to call Mike and see if MAYBE it had stayed on the car all through his drive to work. As soon as my principal saw me, she asked what was wrong. I explained though sobs and she dialed Mike's cell for me. Mike answered the phone with "yes." OH THANK GOD! Apparently, he saw and heard it fall off on the freeway and stopped to get it. Yes, people, he stopped to get it. On the freeway. In 7:30 traffic. Thanks be to whoever was watching out for him that he didn't get hit by a car.
He drove back to my work and gave me my purse. Everything was just fine. You would never know it had been on such an adventure. Then, he went to work 40 minutes late. Fabulous.
From that point on, the day was normal if not pretty good. But seriously, I don't think I can handle another day like that for a very long time. No one should have to. ::sigh::
Now I will end my day by giving a smiling Bridget a bath, swaddle her, and send her off to sleepytime. A good ending to a perfectly crappy morning. G'night all.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Me: Ok, who can name one of the seasons?
Student 1: Fall.
Student 2: Snow. (Ummm, that's a type of weather. Let's try again.)
Me: What season were you just out of school for?
Several students: Summer!
Me: OK, so we have Summer and Fall. What's another?
Student 3: FOOTBALL season!
Bwahahahahaha! I couldn't help but laugh.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Last week went pretty well. I like my class. They seem to be a really good group. My class is only 16 kids as of right now so that's nice too. One year I had a class of 23 and it just about killed me. My goal for the year is to be consistent in my classroom management. I always start out really good but tend to fall back on the same two techniques and I really need to use other things to keep the kids on their toes.
In Bridget news, she giggled for the first time last Wednesday night! Mike was playing with her after her bath and three giggles came dancing out. It was one of the cutest things I've ever heard. Alas, we have not been able to recreate it.
Bridget also finally met her great-grandma. It was one of the sweetest things I've ever seen. My Grandma has never been what you would call a cuddly or loving person. She's just not one of those that really gives hugs or kisses. However, she saw Bridget and melted. She just couldn't let her go. It brought tears to my eyes to see her melting over my sweet little baby. (Please excuse the paint test on the wall.)
I will cherish this always.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
I made it through the first few days back at work. Three days of meetings. The kids all come back on Monday. I think it was easier though because she wasn't very far from me. Mike stayed home on Wednesday and I came home to see her at lunch. Then Thursday and Friday, my mom took off and took care of her. So I knew she was just down the street. Monday will be her first day at daycare. I absolutely love the lady that will be taking care of her. She is so nice and was a teacher for several years before this so she knows about child development and all that good stuff.
Speaking of teaching, so far I have a small class this year. I've only got 15 kids enrolled at this point so that's nice. Open house was last night and I actually had 10 families show up. WooHoo!! Maybe this year I'll actually have some parent involvement.
Bridget is doing really well. She's still sleeping through the night (!!!) and she's smiling all the time. I LOVE it! Check her out...
I'm so happy everytime I wake up and see this face. (And I swear we don't constantly keep her in her bouncer, that's just the easiest place to take pictures of her.)
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
I think she likes it!
"Thanks mommy! This was a good buy." :D
Bridget is 7w 3d
Sunday, July 26, 2009
But because I'm a new mommy and worry about everything, I'm kinda worried that this will lead to her not gaining weight. Doesn't she need to eat to gain weight? If she's not eating for 7 hour stretches, is that good for her at this age? I'm going to ask her pedi on Tuesday at her weight check. He'll probably roll his eyes and say it's fine (as long as she IS gaining weight). But I'm asking anyways.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
So, without further ado, I give you...My first real meal since the c-section!
A made up recipe for panko crusted salmon, sauteed zucchini, and mashed potatoes. OMG, so good (if I do say so myself)! I had planned on using a recipe for the salmon, but when I got into the kitchen, it just didn't sound appetizing. So I threw panko crumbs, parmesan, thyme, and olive oil together and packed it onto the salmon that I had sprinkled with lemon pepper. It came out pretty dang tasty. And can I state for the record that I am so jealous of all of the people that have tons of zucchini in their gardens right now? I LOVE zucchini and actually had to go by it at the store. Bah!
I'm hoping this can continue. I really do like cooking and planning meals.
How about you guys? What have you been eating lately?
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Bridget slept through the night! She fell asleep at 10:30 and she didn't wake up until 5:30 this morning. Woohoo!! I'm feeling great today and I'm really hoping this sleeping thing continues. This is how things are shaping up today though.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Who knew that such a small amount could make a person so happy?! Bridget went to her weight check today and has gained 8oz this week. WAHOOOOOOOO! She is now 8lbs 3oz and doing well. The doctor wants to see her back again next week and if she's continuing to gain weight like this he'llremove the "failure to thrive" label. ::sigh of relief:: Go Bridget, go! Keep growing little one!
Bridget is 6w3d
Thursday, July 16, 2009
I feel like a terrible mommy. I feel like I've failed her. Or her little body is failing her. And I don't know how to fix it.
The doctor didn't give us any real answers. He said it could be anything from not eating enough or not metabolizing calories to enlarged heart or lung problems. So for the short term, we're supplementing with formula. I've been pretty much exclusively breastfeeding to this point. Now I BF and then we offer her a bottle afterward. She has been eating from it so I guess I haven't been providing enough to this point. Hopefully this will help her get on track. I'm so scared it's something more serious though.
We had to take her to get blood drawn yesterday (my heart broke while she cried) and then she had to get chest x-rays done. I'm calling the doctor every few hours hoping that he'll have some update at least on the x-rays.
Have any of you gone through this? I'm completely freaking out and fighting back tears every few minutes. I just want her to be healthy and happy. Is that too much to ask?
**updated** The Dr called and everything came back normal in her x-rays and bloodwork. Actually, he said something in her bloodwork was a little high but didn't say what. He wasn't concerned. I am of course. However, I chose not to ask what it was because then I would just spend the rest of the week looking up reasons for elevated whatever-it-was. I'll be taking her in next Tuesday for a weight check (my idea, not his) to see if this supplementing is working. Please, please let it work.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Holy cow!! One month went by so fast! I don't know that Bridget had gotten much bigger really, but she sure is much more aware and awake. She just started really looking at things a few days ago. And I captured it on camera today! I was so excited. She was in a good mood this morning so I decided to try out her bouncer again. Usually, she starts crying about a minute after we put her in it. Today she seemed to enjoy her time. Check it out -
"Hey there lamby! One day I will eat you and it will look like this! RAAAWR"
"Oh hello there Pug. I see you too. You are my best friend!"
Sunday, July 5, 2009
We spent all day yesterday with a fussy little baby. I bought her a cute little 4th of July onesie and was looking forward to pictures. Little Miss over here had other plans apparently. She flat out refused to be even somewhat calm if she was unswaddled. So, even though you can't see it, know that she was dressed for the occasion.
Happy first 4th Bridget!
Oh, and btw, can anyone else not believe that she'll be one MONTH old tomorrow?! Where the heck did the time go?
Monday, June 22, 2009
Anyway, I didn't start this post to complain. I started it to show you more pictures of this little girl.
First day home. Isn't that the cutest dress. Oh, and that pacifier... Drives me crazy but keeps her happy so it has become a permanent fixture.
Meeting great-grandma for the first time. Grandma was amazed with all the hair. (as is everyone it seems)
First bath. (well, sponge bath b/c her cord stump is still there) She was NOT happy with the getting wet part but she LOVED the baby towel. This kid loves to be swaddled.
Finally, Happy First Father's Day to Mike. We took this last night so it's the most up to date picture of her. I can't believe she is already more than two weeks old.